“You were everything I was looking for, when I wasn’t even looking.”
As I stumbled across this quote on Pinterest the other day, I couldn’t help but laugh. The last several months have been some of such trial, heartache, and finally hope.
Just three months ago, I was crying about the most recent almost. It was difficult, but mostly left me feeling very alone. Not knowing how to move on or what comes next. As I struggled with what life will be if God is calling me to be alone, I only could find peace through prayer. Those still small whispers that God had just protected and that I just need to have faith. God will provide. I had come up with a game plan of finishing my masters, then finding a new job, then moving out within the next two-three years. Being independent and finding my way on my own. I fully trusted and place my heart and all of its desires in God’s hands. Having no idea where it would take me next. Then on November 2nd, my whole world changed.
On that beautiful Sunday morning, I walked into my small town church to see my future standing in front of me. A new guy, a gorgeous stranger, presumably my age, standing right there filling his coffee cup. I praise God everyday for my outgoing personality, for without it, I would not have the wonderful man that God sent that day in my life. I introduced myself, I showed him where the Sunday School class was, and I sat with him in church. Hours later we were Facebook messaging and two days later, we were texting. Now, five weeks later, we have been out on several dates, have spent time getting to know each other and our families, and have been officially dating for just over two weeks. I have never been happier to see God work.
Everyone was right! The moment I stopped looking,God dropped him right in front of me. The one that I know my heart has been waiting for. God has shut many doors in both of our lives. Some of them that are very painful to look back on. Some that have caused insecurity and worry. Some that have affected our trust of other people and each other. Some that we may disagree that they should have been closed. And others that we are thankful that God spared us from the heartache that could have been caused. All the closed doors led us to each other. I thank God every day for bringing him into my life and I don’t think I’ll ever stop. God’s timing is perfect. Two months ago, two years ago, or even two days before I wouldn’t have been ready for the incredible man of God that He has sent me to share life with. I have no idea what the future holds, but I know that anytime I get to share with him will be the best I have ever had.